Dear Thomas...

On this last day of March, you have been with me in different ways each and every day.  This month has been filled with so many memories of you, some so very happy and uplifting and others that remain totally crushing, even after an unbelievable eleven years.  Today, in particular, holds a very happy memory of you...a wonderful day of your past that so many of us shared with you, and one that I choose to focus and reflect on as this month draws to a close.

It has been exceedingly difficult for me, after losing both Mom and Dad.  I am still struggling.  I miss being able to talk with you.  I am not yet sure how everything I am attempting at this moment in time is going to work out, but I am trying to remain hopeful.

I have spent a lot of time this month thinking of that terrible day when all of us lost you.  It still breaks my heart.  But as this month draws to a close, I will think of your smile and how we could tell each other how we really felt about things.  We both tried to stay open to the other's point of view, though we certainly didn't always agree.  The one thing we both always knew, no matter what, was that we would always love each other.  That remains as true today as it was in the past.  I know you are experiencing the fullness of true happiness in the presence of God and the many people who love you.  That gives me comfort and joy.

You are always in my heart, Thomas.

Your Loving Sister, Karen