To my Dearest Brother, Thomas…

I have not been able to sleep tonight.  This still remains the most difficult day for me each year, and the day is only beginning.  My mind is filled with all the memories of this terrible day three years ago.  The sense of loss overwhelms me.  I still miss you so very much. 

The memories from our last three days wash over me, the happy ones and the terrible tragedy and overwhelming loss of that day.  At the same time, I remember how good what became our last conversation was…the things you told me that day and the very good news I had for you.  It was both an ordinary and a special conversation all at the same time, like so many of the conversations we had over the years.  I guess that is what makes all of this so difficult.  I know it meant a lot to you that I was there for you when you needed me, and I certainly felt the same way about having you there.  Don’t get me wrong; I know you are still there and that I will see you again, but I miss your physical presence, your laughter, the listening you did and, of course, your perspective.  I take consolation in knowing that you are with God in the special place He has prepared for you.

I love you so very much, Tommy.  I will do my best, for the rest of this day, to focus on just the happy memories of the times we shared.  Please remember…you will remain in my heart, in my memories, in my prayers, and as part of my spirit until I see you again.  I know you will be waiting.

All My Love Always…Your sister, Karen       (March 26, 2014)